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::sigh::.... [24 Apr 2011|10:01pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

 

this song just seems perfect....in fact, it is perfect...

just fml...for real...

my dad told me today that anytime i wanted to get away even for just a couple of days or something to let him know and i can go up there and chill...i want to, i really do...the only thing is money, my tests are coming up, ive got other stuff to take care of and...idk if im ready to go all the way up there and hangout with him and Lynn by myself just yet - i havent even been up there with Jerimy and Danielle to see what its like...

 
idk, i just want to crawl into a hole for a few days or something...im ready to cut again...i havent in a few weeks but i just feel it again...i want to...im so numb to everything else, i want to be able to feel...and then its things like that that make me want to go into a hospital...i know it sucks and that its not something i should want to do, but it seems to be the only way that i'll get help - either i get hospitalized or i pay $200 i dont have =/
 
i just dont know what else to do anymore....i feel like im just...falling apart slowly...like im holding myself together with Elmers glue and its getting to the point of no return with pressure that im going to break again...i dont want to break - i cant break...
 
but i can feel it coming...
 
and there really isnt a way to stop it...
 

(1ate a leaf | see a tree)

home??...please??... [05 Aug 2008|08:37pm]
[ mood | tired ]

the little kids in the fucking apartments ::they all seem to find their way over here:: are going to fucking die, i swear it.....the other night they were freaking pounding on our fucking door, and then they heard us coming to the door so they ran away...today it sounded like they had a fucking DZ Discovery Zone upstairs, and then started screaming not only at each other, but like somebody was fucking killing them or something - IN THE HALLWAY!!...

wait, here's the best part - their parents didnt even say ONE thing to them!!!....NOT ONE THING!!!....

gah!! i cant WAIT to move back home...i cant take this shit anymore, im going to fucking kill somebody i swear it...

so anyways, i finished Breaking Dawn last night ::i didnt read much on Sunday cause i felt like shit the whole day::...it was fucking amazing and i loved it...the release party kinda sucked, and while i was in line to pay for my book there were these two bimbos behind me trying to discuss what each cover meant and then tried to discuss how she writes and were just basically critisizing her every little thing...i really just wanted to turn around and be like "dude, shut up you dumb bitches!! why dont YOU try writing four novels?"...ugh, stupid people...

in other more exciting news ::for me anyways lol::...as of yesterday, it is Week 6 of Chassis...meaning that as of 4:10 today, there are only 2 1/2 more days until im DONE with this fucking class...im SOO excited because that means im done with fucking Disco Dave and all his "holier than thou" attitude and fucking stories and telling us how if we dont stop drinking now we're just going to end up being drunks and having our lives go down the drain like he "almost did"...today i got my last worksheet done and my last comp done...tomorrow i have one more proficiency and then im done with ALL my work and i can just stand around in the shop all day for the next two days lmao...and then Friday we clean the shop in the morning, and take the final in the afternoon...hopefully we can clean the shop a little faster and take the exam a little earlier and get out a little earlier...

im going to be packing everything besides Jack up on Thursday night, that way when we get out of school Friday, we just have to stop at the apartment, pack up Jack, get some drinks ready, change shirts and then we're outta here...hopefully we're home by 10:00ish...ugh, i hope its no later than that...

Saturday is a busy fucking day...wake up, possibly pick Nikii up to go with me, docs at 11:00, going to see Terrence's grave, Costco with Matt to get drinks and whatnot for home and to get my new phone ^_^, drop Nikii off around 3:00 or 4:00 depending on what time she has to work, dinner at Danielle and Jerimy's and then possibly hanging out with Crystal...

so yeah, thats my agenda for everything for this week lmao...yay me!!

(see a tree)

reading... [31 Jul 2008|08:18pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Breaking Dawn comes out Saturday...

i have my copy reserved and Matt and i are going to the release part tomorrow night at 11:00 so i can offically purchase it at midnight...

yes, im a total dork...

i will be doing the same thing for when the movie comes out...along with Harry Potter ^_^...

speaking of which, i just saw the HP teaser trailer...AMAZING... ^_^

so now i must go...im rereading all the Twilight series before i start reading Breaking Dawn...which means that it will prolly be sitting for a day or so while i finish reading because im not even halfway done with the first book lmao...

HECK YES!!!

(see a tree)

decent weekend... [27 Jul 2008|12:55pm]
[ mood | bored ]

so all in all, this weekend has been pretty decent...

ok, so a little bit more than decent lol

Friday we got outta school and just came home...Rick came over and played Guitar Hero and Halo with Matt while i just kinda chilled online...no biggie because it was a long day anyways lol...

Saturday was REALLY awesome...woke up at about 1:00, showered and got dressed - like Matt told me to...he had a surprise for me...so i did such and we left...he took me to this reservoir by our house that i had no idea was there..it was so beautiful!!! i took tons of photos, i wish we couldve went down to the water though, that wouldve been great!!...so then after that we decided we didnt want to go home yet so we went to the mall just to window shop...i found some kool stuff, but nothing i really need..i looked for earrings because i need new ones ::gauged ones lol:: because im missing a spike and i keep thinking its going to fall out, but alas, no luck finding any :(...i was hoping Matt would take me out to eat afterwards to BWW considering its in the mall parking lot, but he didnt - too expensive...which i guess would be correct because right now we're pretty much broke until we get our next rent and living check..he said after we get ours and Rick gets his, we're all goign to go there - Rick has never been there before!!! he's going to love it so much!! we've gotten him hooked on so many things since we've been here, its hilarious!!!...but yeah, anyways, after we left the mall, we stopped at Barnes and Noble and looked around...i was awed by a book they had on Rent and the original cast and how the writer went about writing it and all this other stuff - it was awesome, but it also had an awesome price to go along with it, so yeah lol...after that we went home, i made pizza, and then we went up to the race track because they had the cars there with jet engines on the back of them - IT WAS FUCKING SWEET!!!...they had a 50's Chevy truck with TWO jet engines - needless to say, we had to run back when he was setting them off...it was amazing!!! i loved it!!! i got a couple of photos on my phone :: i forgot my camera -_- :: so it was kool...after that we took Rick home because his ride ditched him...we were goign to stop at DQ but they were closed...at 10 at night!!! everything around here closes early - it sucks so much ass!!!...so we came home and finished watching The Bucket List and then chilled for a bit and finally went to bed...

today we woke up around 10:00...we havent done jack either lol...i want to go to Walmart just to kinda get outta the house...and stop at the movie store to rent more movies - we signed up for this thing they're doing for the last week of July and all through August where its "get one get one free" off EVERYTHING in the store, so movies are amazing to rent now lmao...plus, DQ is on the way there, and Matt said we could get it today cause they're retarted for a Saturday night lol...but yeah, Walmart sounds awesome right now, im so bored!!!...at least its doing something, ya know??

Matt just asked me what was for lunch...so i told him "whatever you feel like making" lmfao. im so horrible, everybody knows he cant cook for the life of him lmao...

anyways, i guess i should get going...make him lunch, get dressed and do my hair and then head out to Walmart...ugh, stupid boredom...

(1ate a leaf | see a tree)

everybody's doing it, why not keep with the trend? [25 Jul 2008|10:07pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

so lets see...whats new with me..

i moved to PA to go to school...to become a mechanic, or as the teachers put it "an automotive technician"...its a fucking mechanic, ok?? thats what its been called for decades now, get over it...

there has been so much going on lately, its been crazy ridiculous...

the major thing that has happened though, has been a recent and very unfortunate death...

i still cant get over it...i just dont understand, and i dont think i ever will...to be quite honest, its eating me away inside...im constantly thinking about it, and just cant let it go...i put on a brave face and try to act like ive hit the acceptance stage, but in all reality, in my own little world in my head, im still screaming at everything...ive been such a bitch to everyone lately, especially to Matt because we see each other 24/7 ::literally:: so he gets the most of it...but its because i cant let my guard down...i know that once i go home in August and i go to his grave, im going to lose it...Tabby told me details of the funeral, and i know i wouldve flipped out if i went, so im actually glad i didnt go...

just put on a brave face...thats all i can do and keep telling myself...

anyways, other than that, in lighter news, i joined this website thats kinda like Weight Watchers, only for free and you cant buy their food and have to basically be on the honor system...its called Sparkpeople.com...this past week i TOTALLY fucked up and didnt do ANYTHING...im working out like effing crazy tomorrow, i do know that...the main reason for my fucking up is because of my month visitor has dropped in so thats always fun...i blame that, i always do...but starting tomorrow, or possibly Sunday because im a freak like that and i like my weeks to be even, im definitely buckling down majorly...i absolutely REFUSE to look the way i do right now, for Eric's wedding ::im playing my flute and obviously there are going to be photos taken anyways lol::...so yeah...im definitely going to be busting my ass big time from now on...i have started to eat better, its the exorcising really that gets me...im just so tired after i get home from school that i dont want to do ANYTHING besides take a shower and go to bed...ugh, stupid will power...

Matt and i will be home August 8th-10th...we have a docs appointment on the 9th in the morning, and then afterwards i plan on going to the cemetary and then hanging with Nikii....

ive also began my journey with a new religion...its not one that is welcomed very often, but it fits me and honestly, i have found my religion...i believe in so many different things, and this religion is just that - believing in everything!!! its so amazing and i just love every minute of it...granted im going to need some help along the way, but im sure i can find it with all the communities online ive found...

i guess im going to get going though...i want to start rereading my Twilight series books...Breaking Dawn comes out a week from tomorrow and i want to be all refreshed ^_^...

oh, and also...and i dont mean for this to come out in a bitchy way even though i know it will because its online...but ive decided that im not including myself in anymore drama...if you need to vent to someone, thats fine, im here for you to vent that, thats what friends are for after all...but i refuse to sit there and talk crap about someone when they're not there to defend themself or anything of that sort...its nothing against anybody, but im friends with people who arent friends with each other, and two of them im trying to get back into touch with....so vent to me all you want, im here for it...but im not going to agree nor deny anything with you, i will simply lend you a listening ear and then move onto the next subject...i love you all...

(2ate a leaf | see a tree)

my semi annual update lmao [12 Dec 2007|11:46am]
[ mood | cold ]

so, lets see....where do i begin??...

well, the last time i updated it was February so...

i cant really remember anything up until a few months ago...so...

July was Jerimy and Danielle's wedding, and it was awesome...minor things went wrong, but nothing that matters anymore...

August was Dest and Drew's wedding...it was nice cept for the rain lol...but it went away after the ceremony and for the reception, so that was kool....

September was my birthday...and when i got my appendix out -_-...yeah, that was awesome...and then i had to go back because i still wasnt feeling well, and i ended out having an absess, which required a tube to go into me, with a bag hanging out of me on the other end draining infectious fluid....yeah, wasnt pleasant....

however, also in September, was when Matt proposed to me, so it wasnt all that bad ^___^....we were laying in bed one night, and all of a sudden, i just felt him slip something on my finger...its so beautiful, and i love it...

and also my Aunt and Uncle came and visited from California and they were here for my birthday and came over for dinner, it was awesome...

October was so busy...our wedding was on the 25th, and we had to plan everything this month....everything made its way into place though, and the wedding was perfect and i loved every aspect of it ^_^...then we left for our honeymoon, which was absolutely amazing...we rented a cabin up North in Oscoda and just had a really long weekend to ourselves....

November was November...nothing too special about it....starting to get busy at work...

and now its December...work is taking up most of my time right now...this week i had 6 days, im scared to look at the schedule for next week lol...Matt and i moved into his mom's house, so im kinda down right now because she doesnt celebrate Christmas, so there's no decorations at all, so i cant really get into the spirit of things and it really sucks...by now id be so excited for Christmas and whatnot, but really, it doesnt even feel like it because of lack of decor...ugh, i hate it...

so on for other news...im not in school this year...Matt and i are going to a Tech school in March...here's the kicker...its in Pennsylvania...yes, we're moving to Pennsylvania...however, its only for 9 months because thats how long the schooling is...we leave on March 14th, and we'll be back before Christmas...well, just in time for Christmas...we graduate on December 19th, so yeah lol...

so thats about it right now...we're busy planning for moving and trying to get everything together and save money and whatnot...only a few more months to go and we're outta here...

but i guess im going to get going...Matt bought me HP and the Order of the Pheonix for Christmas, and gave it to me early so i could watch it, so i am and all my attention is going towards it right now lmao....

tayl ya'll

`*~Mrs. Zalenski ^_^~*`

(1ate a leaf | see a tree)

Sam's updating??? [28 Feb 2007|10:02am]
[ mood | awake ]

yeah, thats right...im updating finally lol...

i havent really been up to much of anything lately...

work, school, homework, sleep...thats my life mainly lol...

so lately...

a couple of weekends ago, Matt and i finally  got to go up to Saginaw and see Skibbe...twas his birth-weekend ::his birthday was on Friday, but we couldnt get up there till Saturday lol::...twas fun, we all just sat around talking and kinda drinking?? lol all he had was beer, so i had a few sips and i was done lol ewwww...lol...

this past week Matt and i were house/dogsitting for Tiffany and Ken while they went to Vegas...omg, it was so awesome!!! i loved every minute of it lol it was a like a vacation without any parents or anything...just coming home to spend the night with each other, doing whatever we want and such...oh, it was awesome ^_^ i cant WAIT until we get our own place lol...

we also found out that Tiffany is pregnant...well, we've known this for a while now, but she's about 2 1/2 months along now...unfortunately, in the past week, she's had two seizures...shes gone to see the neurologist to figure out whats wrong, but they're still not sure...she cant work or drive until the neurologist says so :( so thats kinda poopy lol...

yesterday was Matt's birthday...twas fun...we went to Cici's Pizza cause thats where he wanted to go...and then we went to Lakeside to shop around....then went back to my house for a bit, and finally came back to his house to sleep and such lol...i gave him a massage when we got to his house as well lol we did WHATEVER he wanted lol...in fact, i even made him fettuccini alfredo when we got back to his house...at like, 9:30 at night lol...spoiled ass lol..

but yeah...tonight Matt and i are going to the band concert...im very esited ^_^ lol...then tomorrow i may be hanging out with Kevin Scott, not sure yet though cuase i havent heard from him...Friday i have to work -_-...and then Saturday Jerimy, Danielle, Matt and i are going to Canada to celebrate Matt and Danielle's birthdays ::Danielle's birthday was Feb 1st::...we've rented a hotel room ::that was my big birthday gift to Danielle and Matt cuase i paid for the rooms lol::....we're going EVERYWHERE lol...first stop ::other than checking into our hotel:: is the casino, then we're going to dance clubs, bars, and other places ~_^ lol...its gonna be awesome!!! lol...and then SUNDAY Crys, Alex, Tiff and Matt and i are all going to IKEA ^_^ SOOO esited about that ^_^ i LOVE IKEA lol...Matt and i are riding with Tiff though cause im gonna have to drive the truck cause shes not allowed to drive :( lol...

so yeah...those are my plans for this weekend ish thinger lol...

tayl ya'll...

`*~baby~*`

(3ate a leaf | see a tree)

omg... [29 Dec 2006|10:55am]
[ mood | crazy ]

SAMS NOT DEAD!!!

myspace is a bitch and got me addicted like WHOA to it lol...

so whats been new with Sam since Halloween?? lol...

i got a new phone a little while back...same number, but my other phone just fucking hit rock bottom and i couldnt take it anymore lol...

my dad is still a douche bag and is still trying to get me to talk to him...not working -_-...he got me a gift card to Family Video for Christmas...

Christmas was awesome this year...my Uncle Phil was there along with my cousin Stephanie!!! that was freaking sweet, i havent seen her in like, seriously, 7 or 8 years...it was amazing lol...

my Uncle Phil hit our house with his truck Christmas night...that was hilarious as fuck!!!

unfortunately i found out that my Uncle Jim ::my papa's brother::, has cancer and according to the doctors, he has about 6 months to live...but my papa went to visit him and said that he'll be lucky if he makes it through the winter..im really bummed about that because my Uncle Jim is freaking sweet and such, so yeah...

other than that...nuffin much has gone on...

oh, right now my car is up on jack stands and has been for the past two weeks...ive been carless for TWO WEEKS!!!!...-_-...my steering rack and power steering went out and all this other crap...Matt's been working on it like WHOA...after he started it and was in the middle of fixing it, his grandfather informed him that what he was doing was pretty much impossible without a hoist ::the thing that lifts the car up above the ground in a mechanics garage::...so yeah, that was wonderful news...but Matt's almost got it done...he's gotta aline the steering rack and bolt it in, test it, and then he's done...granted then it needs to go in for an alignment, but that doesnt take long, and i should have my car back by Wednesday!! lol...

ive registered/paid for classes for next semester...im taking environmental science and english ::the one i actually NEED for my degree lol::...and then after that, all i'll need is to take my auto classes, and a phys ed class and woohoo!! lol...

today i have to work 3--close ::around 9:30:: and then i have TOMORROW OFF!!! omg...im SOOO glad i have tomorrow off...its amazing...and then next week i only work Sunday, Tuesday and Saturday ::Saturday i even get off EARLY::...so thats  very esiting too because since July, ive been COMPLETELY busy...either work, school and work, and then Holiday hours...i FINALLY have a break from everything next week lol...its awesome...

Eric leaves to go to Iraq on the 7th...it pretty much sucks ass like whoa... :(

i guess i should get going though...ive made my post for the next couple of months lol...

tayl ya'll

`*~baby~*`

(see a tree)

3 MORE DAYS!!! [28 Oct 2006|10:25am]
[ mood | busy ]

until my most favorite holiday of the year EVER!! im esited ^_^...Matt and i are going to get our costumes tomorrow?? i believe so, so that esites me even more!!!

it doesnt feel like Saturday...at all...its weird...

work today, and off until Thursday...again...ive had this schedule for the past like, 3 weeks or so...w/e...

in other news..yesterday i was having a bad day at work, so Matt went out and bought me An American Haunting on DVD and the new MCR cd ^_^ thats very esiting...he spends too much money on me though -_-...him telling me that he just put $500 into his savings account for us for moving out would be the greatest gift of all!! lol but w/e makes him happy lol...i mean, dont get me wrong, its not that i dont like the stuff he buys me or that i dont appreciate, because i REALLY do...but we've only got like, at MOST $1500 saved up to move out, and we plan on moving out  next summer...and we want to have at LEAST $2000 saved up for like, after we make our deposit and first months rent and buy all our furniture and whatnot so that its like, just in case something happens...

idk...im sure we'll be fine though...im gonna start saving more money after Christmas like WHOA though..i saw after Christmas because thats the last time im spending a lot of money on something...and even then, im not spending as much money as i used to because Danielle and i have come to the conclusion that everybody in my family is broke this year, so we're just getting like a couple small presents each or something and thats it...more than likely wont buy for any friends either, so if i dont get you a gift, dont be upset, its nothing personal...and please dont get me something, becuase then i'll feel horrible...if anything, just get me a card or something lol i know for sure i'll be doing that...

but alas...i must get going becuase im starting to run late...work at 11, and i still have to clean the house and whatnot before i leave and its 10:32 lol...
tayl ya'll

(1ate a leaf | see a tree)

even if im flying solo, at least im flying free!!!... [25 Oct 2006|04:08pm]
[ mood | woo Rent! ]

Wicked rocks my socks ^_^

so anyways...WAY long time no update...

well, Sasha lives with Matt now...school's going ok...Matt and i are doing aweosmely...

there's not much going on in my life lol...

work...school...school...work some more...time with Matt...nothing much else lol my life is boring lol...

so yeah...umm...

sure...

im gonna go watch Sabrina now..or maybe play some Ice Age: 2 that Matt bought me lol

tayl ya'll

`*~baby~*`

(3ate a leaf | see a tree)

do beee do be dooo...beware of the penguins... [11 Oct 2006|08:55am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

so quick update...

the new house is awesome...stayed here by myself last night...stupid paranoia -_-...

i just realized something...and it sucks like WHOA!!....

back in high school, you could take whatever math class you wanted, and as long as you passed, it counted as a credit...
totally not like that in college...in the math class im in right now, i have to pass this one, pass the next one and then pass the one after that in order for it to count as a credit becuase the one im in right now, and the one after this one, dont count...

EFF!!!!...

i hate college...

stupid trying to better myself and make a living -_-...

ah well though...at least im in school and i know what i want to do and i know where im going in life at least in that perspective...

but alas...i must go now...i have to go to that wonderful place called "college" and better myself lol...

tayl ya'll

`*~baby~*`

(1ate a leaf | see a tree)

all moved in!! [09 Oct 2006|08:25am]
[ mood | busy ]

yup yup....we're all moved in...Saturday we moved all our furniture into the new house and then Saturday night Matt and i put everything together...then he stayed the night for my first night in the new house ^_^...

last night i woke up expecting to be in the old house, and then i looked around and realized that yeah...NOT!!!..

Sasha is now living at Matt's house...they took Hayley to his grandparents because it would be easier that way, and because thats what his grandpa wanted...i didnt care, as long as she got a good home to go to, and she did, so thats all that matters...

now she just has to get used to Connie lol but she will...Connie actually doesnt have to work today, so she'll have all day to spend with her lol...she'll warm up...

i guess she slept in Matt's bed last night...he called when he got home ::after i texted him 45 minutes later cause he hadnt called yet lol::, and said that he had her in his bed and that she was already asleep lol...and that she was sleeping on the little loveseat when he got home ::insert LARGE aww here lol::...so yeah, shes happy with her new home...

i wish i could go see her earlier than what i can today...i wont be able to see her until i get outta school completely at 3:30ish...i want to see her like, NOW lol...but w/e...gotta go to school -_-...

and i guess i should get going and start getting ready...ima leave here at 9:00 so i can stop at 7-11 on my way there...i still have to time everything to see how long it takes to get from here to everywhere lol...

i'll tayl ya'll

`*~baby~*`

(1ate a leaf | see a tree)

just a quick update... [05 Oct 2006|08:48am]
[ mood | awake ]

first off...CONGRATS BAND!!!! im so esited for you guys ^_^ and im so proud ^_^

secondly...Sasha is NOT being put down...Matt's grandparents said they would take her, so thats very esiting ^_^...

my 19th birthday was awesome...party was fun as well ^_^...thanks everyone for their gift!!!

mine and Matt's ONE YEAR anniversary was yesterday...the day was crap, but the night was absolutely amazing ^_^...dinner..missed the movie cause dinner took so long, but thats ok...we drove around a little bit just laughing like none-other...then came back to my house and watched some tv and gave each other massages with the massage oil Beth gave me for my birthday ^_^ i almost fell asleep XD lol...then he had to leave cause yeah...he had to work this morning also...it was absolutely perfect...

and his gift that he got me...HOLY HELL!!!...14 kt white gold ring with four little REAL diamonds in the middle...i thought it was an engagement ring because he said that THATS when i would get a ring like that...but alas, it wasnt...tis another promise ring though, and i think this is the last promise ring i get before the BIG one lol...although who knows becuase he said the last ring i got ::the one with the blue heart stone:: was the last ring before the engagement...so yeah lol....BUT I LOVE THIS ONE!!!...i have to get it sized, and i dont want to let it go :( lol...

but yeah...work today 9:30--4:00...Matt has a chiro appointment at 5:30...then class later on??...debating on that becuase yeah...its math and math sucks ass becuase he doesnt teach us right...but w/e...maybe we'll go to the new house for a little while or something...

tomorrow is a fun filled day...get up, go pick up my check, take it to the bank, go back to work at 1:00 until close ::at 9:45ish::...joyous -_-...

and then Saturday is work 9:30--4:00 and then going home to put my room together cause the furniture will be there ^_^ lol...

mom's taking the computer over there today though, so this will be my last post in the next few days ::not like i havent been updating like once a week anyways, but yeah lol::...so yeah...i'll see ya'll later!!!

`*~baby~*`

(5ate a leaf | see a tree)

rawr ::cough::... [28 Sep 2006|03:04pm]
[ mood | drained ]

yay for being sick -_-...

two more days until my birthday!!! im so esited ^_^...and less than a week until mine and Matt's 1 year, thats even more esiting!!! ^_^ lol...

nothing much has been new with me...ive been sick , so ive pretty much been lying around the house most of the time for the past few days...yesterday is the first day i actually felt fine enough to move...

school is going ok...i kinda just want to quit right now because yeah, its school...but im getting by and going to class and such...i WILL get through this entire semester, and i WILL get good grades -_- lol...

other than that, nothing much else...

mom says that we HAVE to get rid of Sasha which is bogus...she says that we have until next Friday to pick a day to take her to get her put down, or she's gonna do it herself, and she'll just take her to the humane society and have them do it...whore...there's no reason for putting her down...she's healthy, she's a good dog...my mom first said that it was because she was peeing on the carpet ::she later found out that it was only because Sasha was used to having Eric home all the time to let her out::...then she said it was because she was too old and didnt want to put anymore money into her to keep her alive...now its because she doesnt want Sasha biting a little kid or something ::which she doesnt even know if there ARE any little kids around us to begin with::...so yeah...its all just bs...the whole reason for moving where we're moving to is so that we can take the dogs...shes such a whore...

but whatever...im about to tell her that she better be looking for a new dog then because im not gonna let her put Sasha down, and then leave Weazer all by himself because then he'll get all depressed and whatnot and im not having a sad dog for a stupid reasoning...

GRRRR!!!!!...

but yeah...thats about it lately...i guess ima get going...tis 3:11 and i have to finish reading my book and then start some more on my room with the packing because i still have a LOT to do....i'll tayl ya'll

`*~baby~*`

(see a tree)

HOLY CRAP!!!... [23 Sep 2006|12:56am]
[ mood | tired ]

i think that's the longest ive ever gone without posting something in here...8 DAYS!!!...lol...

anyways...not gonna post much because Danielle's cat attacked me earlier, and my finger is KILLING me...but i guess thats what happens when a cat's claw goes straight into ur finger and then the stupid cat YANKS its paw while claw is still attatched to you...stupid cat -_-...

birthday is in ::technically:: a week...or as some may comment because they're smart asses...7 DAYS!! lol...my mom gets the keys to our new house on the 29th ::Friday::, and then we start moving boxes on my birthday...what a joyous birthday, ay??...and then by the weekend after that, we will be all moved in...yay -_-...but im esited i guess...it'll be a change...and if i play my cards right, i'll have a new job as well that pays a HELL of a lot more, AND is closer to my new home...so yay that...

and mine and Matt's 1 year is on the 4th ^_^ YAY!!!...

but i guess ima get going now...work tomorrow so yay that -_-...im also REALLY tired...i'll tayl ya'll NIGHT NIGHT!!!

`*~baby~*`

(see a tree)

RAWR!!!! [14 Sep 2006|08:56am]
[ mood | lazy ]

sometimes i really dont like myself...

mainly because of my motivational factor in my brain or whatever...

i know i need to get packing done because we move in like, 2 1/2 weeks and i still have a TON to pack...but i dont have the motivation...

its not becuase i dont want to move...well, i mean, i kinda dont want to move, but im esited about it too and cant wait to move at the same time...but i just dont have any motivation to pack for it...i just, kinda want it to be here, just be like Superman and pick everything up the way it is, and then take it to my new house and just set it there all in place...

im still at Matt's right now though lol...i stayed the night last night becuase i was too tired to drive home and now i just havent gone home yet...i'll be leaving after im done with this update...

and then i'll start packing...and then i'll shower and then i'll head up to the school...i'll go for 6th hour so that i can get in the building because we all know they wont let me in if it's after school's out...whores...

im also kinda hungry, so maybe i'll eat something first before i start packing...idk...i'll figure something out...

ima get goin though..i'll tayl ya'll

`*~baby~*`

(2ate a leaf | see a tree)

every mile a memory... [11 Sep 2006|10:50pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

i heart that song...

HOLY COW!! Sam's updating two updates in a row?! thats amazing!!! lol...not really, but w/e lol...

so anyways...went to classes today...didnt want to, but hey...class is class...got VERY LITTLE packing and such done today...im talking a HORRIBLE amount...i started packing my entertainment center...yeah, didnt even get half of it done lol...i didnt really want to move...i was so tired...and then i had psyc to go to lol...

im really tired and need to go to bed really...i have to work in the morning ::ewwww::...i forget who comes in tomorrow and at what time, but i guess i'll find out when i get there, now wont i??...i thought it may be Danielle, but she was there at noon today, so i dont think it would be twice in a row...so yeah...im guessing its Britney, but w/e lol...

i was going to update more, but im too tired and want sleep...that, and i just ate some left over turkey and stuffing, so you KNOW im tired now lol...

i'll tayl ya'll night night

`*~baby~*`

(1ate a leaf | see a tree)

rawr... [11 Sep 2006|12:04am]
[ mood | tired ]

tis September 11th...5 years, holy cow...its so weird, it feels like just last month it happened..

crazy...

i wonder if STATIC is doing another thinger for it...i'll have to get up to check it out...

so apparently my pattern for updates is every 3 days...cant help it...im just busy...

yay for moving...

my mom was approved for the new trailer...we're slowly packing...the only day i have off this week is Thursday, so guess what Sam's doing all day cept for class later on...and band practice...

and also Friday night if there's no football game...

my room needs SOO much work done to it to be packed and even CLEANED...its horrible...i actually dont want to go to school tomorrow just so that i can stay home and do it...but alas, i must go to class...

in other news...i REALLLY want to get one of my tattoos...idk which one, or if there's some little twist that i would rather have on one of them...but i REALLLY want one...i tried getting Danielle and Jerimy to get that for me for my birthday, but Jerimy doesnt like tattoos, so there's a no-go right there...i would ask my mom, but ima ask her to take like, $150 off the money i owe her as my gift...freaking stingey whore...

i guess i should get going though...if i want to get up and whatnot...

i'll tayl ya'll night night

`*~baby~*`

(1ate a leaf | see a tree)

rawr... [07 Sep 2006|09:43am]
[ mood | content ]

man, talk about being busy and whatnot lately??...

well yesterday was fun...ish lol..

had a doc's appointment instead of going to Spanish, but ended out in the last ten minutes of class anyways so w/e....

at the doc's ::twas my allergy doc's::....i found out i have chronic asthma like WHOA...ok, when you get there, you take this breathing test...then they give you a breathing treatment, and then you have to take the breathing test again to see if it helped any...well, two months ago when i did it, there was very little difference...i guess if there's like an 8-11% difference, you have active asthma which is just like when you go running and you cant breathe afterwards or whatever...after 12% its chronic...i had a 28% difference...GO ME!! lol...so now i get to do this everyday inhaler thinger twice a day and have a regular inhaler...go me -_-...

so anyways, after that, i went up to the school and got Nikii...we went to St. John's to make a payment on my thinger cuase i owed...then we went to Coney for food becuase Coney is good and its cheap lol...afterwards, we went to Walgreens to pick up my script..

ok, this is where i get pissed in my day...i dropped off my script at 11:30, right?...they said it would be an hour so i said "ok, i'll be back then"...well, we actually didnt get back to Walgreens until about 1:20ish...they STILL didnt have my script and shes like "oh, he didnt review it and idk why, but hes doing it right now so it'll just be a few minutes"...well, i have a class at 2:00 so im like "you know, i'll have to come back for it because i have to go to class right now"...grr people...the pissedness continues later but we'll continue with the day...

so i go to class...we talk some more about socratic seminars and we have one and whatnot...they're actually kind of amusing...and it wastes class time too ^_^ lol...i made a new friend...her name is Suzanne and shes prolly about my mom's age but shes so kool...we get along great and she invited me to go to her craft club meeting...what it is, is that her and a bunch of other women meet somewhere once a month and just crochet, knit, sew, do whatever craft they want and just talk...and if someone wants to learn how to do something, they'll say "if anyone wants to learn to do ::this:: next week, i'll bring the materials" and its awesome...im thinking about going cause it sounds like fun and it would give me motivation to finish my blanket that ive been working on for like, 8 years if not longer lol...

so then class ends...i leave...stop at home real quick and then go pick up Matt's mom's pictures, and then stop at Walgreens to get my script...ok, pissed mode comes into play again...they only have my thing that i take twice a day, not the actual inhaler...joyous...they said they'd have it for me today, but grr to them!!!...

so then i come over to Matt's...chill out here for a bit while waiting for him to get home, he comes home, his mom is pretty much right behind him, we eat, watch House, watch some CSI, and then its time for school...

psyc was let out at 9:00 becuase he had to do something i guess...but hey, w/e...lol...

so we came home and started watching some tv and whatnot and then i started feeling nauseas like WHOA and didnt even want to move cause i felt like i would spew...so i stayed the night here...i just woke up about 10 minutes ago and im about to eat and then head over to my house...

my plans for today are to clean and pack...im thinking of driving out to the new house just to see how long it'll take and how much gas and whatnot...and then of course class later -_-...yay math -_-...

but yeah....i guess ima get going...gotta get stuff done and whatnot...i'll tayl ya'll

`*~baby~*`

(6ate a leaf | see a tree)

YAY!!!! [04 Sep 2006|09:32am]
[ mood | chipper ]

HAPPY 11 MONTH TO MATT & I ^_^



 ^_^ so esited!!!

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